Coffee Turns My World

Just believe.

I'm doing a lot better than I was in my previous entry. I'm packing, sorting, and smiling. I'm coming home FEB. 7th, and I CAN'T WAIT. It's gonna be a good thing for my life, even if it's going to be hard to say goodbye to my home in Moorhead, Minnesota.

Moorhead, Minnesota has been my home for the past four years, so it's going to be sad.
Berkeley, California was my home of old and will be my new home.

HOOWAH!

Having a good breakfast with Peet's coffee, and home made scrambled eggs and bacon. Decorating the living room and Christmas tree. Going to downtown Berkeley, doing some Christmas shopping, and running into two old friends. Walking hand in hand down the streets with my boyfriend. Laughing, having a good dinner, and going to sleep with a smile on my face.

I'm so glad to be here right now.

:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I9XkdAB2FA4

Today was a good day. :) I woke up in a good mood, Blade made me great coffee, and we smoked together, just ourselves, which is something that doesn't happen often. It felt like a real treat. We took the bus to West Acres mall, where he spent fifty dollars on just having a good day. It was incredible, ladies and gentlemen. He bought me beautiful multi-colored spiral glass gauges, two new nose studs, and two earrings. Afterwards, we bumped into Phil and Delana on the bus, and I got to see their cute son named Tison. He's so adorable. I'm ashamed to say, I gushed. I bought a pizza, complete with hot wings and blue cheese (delicious), and began to watch Finding Nemo. Today's been one of those days where the air is cold, but the sky is perfect, and the trees seem enhanced with photoshop. Beautiful. That's a reason why I stay here in Moorhead, MN. That's a reason right there, guys.

My computer has given me a perfect playlist, and so here it is:


"What Else Is There" - Royksopp
"Ooh La La" - Goldfrapp
"What Your Soul Sings" - Massive Attack
"Cetacea" - Bjork
"Don't Whisper Lies" - Astaire
"Life In Mono" - Mono
"Melatonin" - Radiohead
"Extreme Ways" - Moby
"Psychobabble" - FrouFrou
"Backdrifts" - Radiohead
"Number 1" - Goldfrapp

:)

Amazing.

It's about 7:40am here, and there's snow on the ground. I have a mug of fresh orange juice and a scrumptious bagel, waiting until my stomach is full to start the roughly two miles walk to donate plasma.
Yesterday was Blade's birthday, and so friends and I took him out to dinner and bowling, and then we hung out at a friend's place for a good while. He got an awesome flash book of tattoos, which inspired him (at one in the morning) to whip out his superior gun and give himself a new tattoo. It looks pretty sweet, even though it's an eyeball hanging a rabbit. Boys will be boys, I guess.
Today I (as previously stated) am donating plasma, curling up in a comfy chair in a coffee shop with a book and a white chocolate mocha, and going out to dinner with Blade and his parents.
Life is good today.

Well, it's true. I mean, not at the house on Hillegass because my parents moved.

I got to see the old house...and oh how I miss it.

But I'm here. Bezerklians, let's hang out.

Blade: Seeing the moon and stars reflected on the ocean was the second most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
Me: What's the first?
Blade: <i>(without a moment's hesitation)</i> You.


:)

On Saturday, I'll have been going with Blade for a month. I'm getting ready for my CNA program, settling into my new goals, and right at this moment...

I'm feeling happy.

I am hoooooooooooooooome.

It's so scary to see my parents moving. Is that pathetic? Probably.

I'm so glad to be home, though.

Hallo there.

I am alive. The past two weeks have been interesting, and now it's the last week of school and there's finals. Uff da. I'm not even going to get into that, because I'm sure tons of you know already what goes on.
Dad's not doing well. It's hard to take.
I don't sleep much anymore.
I'm moving into my new apartment on Saturday.
I wonder what's going to happen with my school issue next semester.
And how this break's going to go. Interesting times.

Hope y'all are doing well.

Post a comment to this entry and I will...

1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ.

You like quiet times. 
You have quiet times and want to be totally fucking out there. 
You like being totally fucking out there.
You are totally fucking out there and want to have quiet times.

One just needs to steal a moment to sit back, 
have a cup of tea (light a cigarette if one fuckin' wants it), and read the funnies or a damned awesome book. 

...Or am I the only person that feels soooo much better after doing that?

We're getting along okay.

I had a meeting with one of my professors and my adviser.That was a load of fun, let me tell you. They gave me compliments like, "You're passionate about the french language", "You have a gift with art", and "You have amazing goals that you're working towards".

However, my adviser also said, "This is a huge workload for you. Anybody could get sick from stress from the amount of this homework that you're doing. You may want to work hard, but you also need to manage time for relaxation. You might want to think about dropping a class. I'm not saying you'll have to, but it should be taken into consideration."

What's my response to that?

Fuckit. I'm gonna continue it. I should, I can, and I will. BZ's. All of them.

If I do collapse, that would at least be kinda funny.

Dear god, I really am nuts. Hah hah. How funny.

So. Guess where I am? The library. Oh, that's so unusual Jill. Hah hah hah, I'm so funny.

What have I been doing for the past week or so? Shutting myself in my room and doing homework, going to class and tutoring (albeit I have skipped cour de conversation, but I swear I'm going on Thursday. I absolutely can't today because I have five tests to study for, two papers to write, and at least one addition to print out. All to be done by today and tomorrow. )...

I like seeing people and chatting to them for a while, but I've become such a loner. If people and I do homework together, that's fine. Otherwise, I'm pretty much anti-social. This is not a diss towards anyone, but I prefer being alone right now.

What am I planning on doing over Fall Break? Nothing but homework. I mean, I'll hang out with people that are hanging around, but I want to get ahead on homework as much as possible because this doing nothing but homework thing is nice, but I need time to relax, and just get ahead on shit.

[/headbang on table]

What's the other positive thing about tonight? I won't be going to sleep. If you guys think I have bags under my eyes now, juuuuuuuuuust you wait until tomorrow.

Weirdly enough, I'm only mildly stressed, but I'm willing to do this because, hello, gotta keep up my grades here. Right now, I'm just spacey and very tired. No sadness, no unhappiness, none of that. Actually, today hasn't been a bad day. It's actually been a rather good day so far. I like that. :)

Oh man. Yesterday was...pleasant. I like using that word to describe things. 
Today so far has been good too, actually. I'm being a little anti-social, but that's because I'm enjoying hanging out in my room listening to the new playlist I made and doing homework. That's a little strange, I guess, but hey. You know, I'm having fun. 
Plus, it's slightly cold, which I'm enjoying. Perhaps if I have time I shall head over to the gym to work out. Yeeees. That would be awesome. Well, I can't do anything with my feet, obviously. Perhaps I shall just wear sneakers and do calf, abs, and arms. And back. Shivvy. 
I love being in a spacey state, but a happy one. Plus, I got to talk to my mom for over half an hour, which is always fun. 

Sadly, there is a slight downside to today. My mother told me that Dad fell down yesterday and broke a door of the big china cupboard that we have. He got cut and bruised, and has to go get IV medecine tomorrow. He's fallen over a few times because of his right side giving out, but this is the first time it happened on the left. We're not extremely concerned, but there's a niggling bit of worry. 

Well, off to dinner.

Would a sponge feel spongey? I'm that fucking tired. I'm not done. DAMNIT HOMEWORK.
DAMNIT WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE SO MUCH TO DO?!

Problem is, I might have to stay awake most of the night and only get a nap. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

FUCK YOU HOMEWORK.

All I want to do is collapse. Can I? Nope.

No sleep.

My 8:00 precalc class was hilarious. There was absolutely no talk about math. Instead, we talked about how men are visual microwaves and women are relational crockpots. Oh, and the issue of our school handing out condoms, bonding and babies. and how people (Tim included himself) do get grumpy when they don't get laid, but "good Christians don't get jiggy with it until after marriage."
I have a video of it on my phone. He asked me in the middle of class if I was, and I promptly replied yes, because it was so fucking funny.
I talked with my friend for a while, and scampered to the library for an hour and a half before printmaking class. That was fun, even though Sarah, Erin and I skipped an hour so we could go eat at the Norm and cut copper.
Now I am back at the library with no idea when I shall leave. I've been here for an hour, which makes a total of two and a half hours. I have a paper to type up, notes to take, a paper to at least get halfway done...and study for three quizzes and a paper tomorrow.
I'm not expecting to leave until...hmmm, it's almost four now, so possibly six or seven.
You know what the really sad thing is? When I get back to my apartment, I'm going to take a nap, and when I wake up buttfucking early in the morning, I will have to stay up so I can go to my classes and turn in shit, write paper, and take quizzes.
Bah.

So you lovely people who have been reading my entries, I'm sure you've all noticed that they're all emo and me bitching my situation out like no fucking other. 
But nay, this entry shall not follow that recent trend!...Alright, I had one thing that slightly pissed me off but I will not let that ruin my day. 
Anyhoo. Onwards to the awesome part of the past few days. 
Firstly, on Friday I went to my Art History class that I love love love. Then my friend Jack picked me up and spoiled me to no end, which was pretty fucking cool. Onward to last night:
Okay. So, I don't know how many of you guys know this, but for the most part, I haven't been drinking at all, because when I tried, with the exception of one or two times in the summer when I got trashed, I didn't even finish whatever drink I was having, so I didn't see the point of continuing the drinking. I don't often go to parties because I'm doing homework, and all of that lovely stuff. 
However, last night Sam (someone who's been a good friend of mine since the first week of my freshman year because we were in the same orientation group) called me up and we went and hung out at a party where I bumped into some good friends of mine. I actually split a coke and vodka with same (you know, when they put it in a coke bottle) and we finished it off. After that, we drove around for a while, and ended up at AJ's apartment. A few friends (they're all awesome and gay which rocks) were there, and we had fun goofing off. Afterwards, we went to another friends house and drank more, smoked, and got into awesome debates. I didn't get back until about 4:30 in the morning when I got a ride home from a guy I had met last evening. 
Today, I rolled out of bed when my friend Siri called me around 12:45 and we went and had lunch together. A friend Stephanie that I haven't seen in around a year and a half with the exception of last night was there and we chatted for a while, before Siri and I walked over to the Rourke Art Museum where I had to pick out a print and write three short essays on it. We strolled to M&H and I bought a blue razz lollipop and a Starbucks Iced Coffe and got to see a cool guy I know named Charles. 
After walking back, I began to recline in my apartment with a window open because it's an awesomely nice day where I can wear shorts and a t-shirt. I talked on the phone with one of my best friends named Nate, which always makes my day. We have a tradition of calling each other on Saturdays, which always rocks. 
Tonight, I shall be going to a friend's apartment to a rather large party to see some people that I haven't seen in a while, I may possibly drink, and then head to the Johnny Holme concert and hang out there. So I'm really hoping that this day/night while continue to be bitchin'. 
Crossing my fingers, anyway. So now I must go to watch a movie (Ghostbusters - one of my favorite movies of all time) and half-assedly do homework so that I don't have to cram everything in tomorrow. 
So I am pleased and happy that I got to have this wonderful break, because it has made me feel happier than I have in a long long time. It's totally boosted up my mood. 
I could keep talking about how happy I am and how this weekend has made me feel so so so so much better, but I think I would repeat myself over and over, and that would get pretty boring. 
Therefore, smooches to you all!
Love, 
Jillian